Observations by Nicole

I’ve been thinking lately about myself. I do this a lot. Especially now since all my hard partying over Spring Break (read: intense internet browsing, intense overconsumption) is over and I am sinking into an all-new low of misery.

I think about how far I’ve gone psychologically, and often I find interesting people who have traits that I used to have. This interests me. It also repulses me a bit. Insecurity, defensiveness and self-loathing are all things that I used to proudly wear on my utility belt of mental instability. Now that they are gone, I can’t stand them in other people. Why doesn’t everyone just get a medical marijuana subscription, or if you’re not into the wild world of drugs (or maybe you’re a Scientologist) why not just calm the fuck down?

Someone I really admire is Janet because of her strong will. Even though she often goes through difficult times, she is optimistic and never backs down from her post, even if TGO gets all giggly about her flaws. Admittedly she has more mental instabilities than I can count (and possibly more than she can count herself), but she is still taking her life for what it is, proud of what she enjoys, and is content with what she has.
Goddamn it! I’ve never had that phase. And neither have any of those other insecure little cunts that I’ve seen on the massive psycho ward that is the Internet.

To end this post in an optimistic blaze of glory, I say to you: Merry fucking Christmas, and God bless us One and All. I don’t give a shit if you’re a Scientologist.